getcha motor running

in 5 days ill be married. in 10 ill be in washington. in about 20 ill be living in San Diego. i still havent packed yet, not like ive had a chance. i have loads of laundry to do, and its not all mine. i still havent chose my song for the first dance for my wedding. jon wants us to have a baby right away. i really dont think it would be fair to anyone. i told him we should wait till we come back to chicago. too much pressure. ugh.

Mrs. Whatshername

11 Days until my wedding. i have no job. and its christmas time. i just spent $150 on christmas gifts. i cashed in my gift cards from my bridal shower. almost done. maybe i wont break out as bad has i have lately. i need a good song to cure my stuck at home blues.

Someones Got A Case Of The Mondays

YES! i love today sooo much. ill see the love of my life for at least a day, its great to me. 40 more days till the wedding and im not nervous at all. mom and i have everything pretty much planned. saturday is the bridal shower and i still need an outfit, but ill be making off with a bunch of goods, so im ok!

secure your insecurities

wow. I'm apparently not allowed to be in the same room with my fiance if the door is closed. how stupid is that? ugh, just 2 more months till I'm married. and 3 more months till i move to California.
Hooray!

Dear Diary, My Not So Teen Angst Has a Body Count

so last month my boyfriend of 8 months proposed to me and i said yes. i mean i love him with all my heart and i trust him even more than i do my own brothers (and i trust them with my life, so that says alot). Last night 2 of my aunts came over and tried talking me out of it in front of my father. BIG MISTAKE. he made it all about him and how he doesnt want me to get married at all and go away. the thing is my fiance is in the Navy so hes gonna be gone alot. My dads worried for me. i get that. im the baby of the house, but im 21 and im old enough to make my own decisions. he said something like youre not pregnant you dont have to get married. i hate how he made it seem as though at my age being pregnant is the only reason someone should get married. WHAT ABOUT LOVE? seriously? a hundred years ago i would have been married for 7 years already. one of his excuses was "you havent seen enough of the world or done enough yet". i have too! ive gone on trips with my friends to different states. ive gone to about 6 different countries. ive gone on a cruise. ive had other boyfriends. he then stated " youre beautiful. you think hes the only guy whos going to think that? there will be others" yeah well you know what dad? I DONT WANT ANYONE ELSE! seriously, i thought i was done with highschool drama when i graduated highschool.